See you're right. And I know this about myself. I just don't want to deal with it right now.
I ended up calling him at 12:30 and he didn't answer. So I texted him saying he needed to man the fuck up and tell me what was going on. He comes back with I was getting over protective, at which point I promptly bowed down, apologized, and made m out to be that bad guy, when in reality he was being an outright asshole.
Thing is I'm used to having a guy I can fall back on, and he's the one right now, and I like the attention.. It's sad and pathetic but I do, and I'm not sure what happens when I stand alone left to my own devices.
And I do get possessive, but the only person I brought it up with was Taylor, the girl I was getting jealous over, and one of my best friends. And idk if that's what he was talking about, and I know she wouldn't do anything.
I'm more pissed at myself that i fucked up and I can't see him now barely at all.
You. didn't. fuck. up.
Honestly, I'm just like you when it comes to relationships (or at least, what you've explained). I'm terrified of appearing too cling-y, which can sometimes make me appear too distant. It's a fine line to tread.
I'm jealous too, and I feel like I need a guy to fall back, even when I'm securely single. It's like a security net, and it helps your confidence knowing that- in the back of your mind- there's a guy always there.
He's an immature guy, just as Mzz said. He pretty much broke down how I believe that guy operates. Believe me, I've met plenty of them. It helps boost up their self image, and in his head, he's probably romanticizing himself as a "heart breaker". That's exactly why he said that crap to you about not being accepted, he's trying to make something that should be simple into something epic. I think he's trying to make it seem as if there's something fundamentally flawed about you to cope with his own insecurities.
You're young (as patronizing as that sounds), and they'll be loads of assholes you'll meet. It's hard to find the ones that aren't going to pull this kind of crap. Ignore this guy, and keep going with your life. You'll find a good guy soon.